To a Dear
Friend on Valentine's Day
I wish I could
change things and undo the things I’ve done…
I wish I could
tell you that you were the only one…
But if I could
turn back the written pages or change the hands of time
I’d try and
do it differently, and say I’d be yours and you’d be mine.
But my heart
has been so twisted…tossed and turned and swayed
From men that
have abused me, scorned me and then, not stayed…
so much of how I was treated…rubbed off and left it’s mark
changed in how I used to be, not warned of the embark
I was overtaken
by the hurt and confusion; blinded by my tears
how it had changed me to worse through lifes painful years.
learned forgiveness to my own hurts and pains
And what it
does to not let it go twil bear it’s blots and stains
But I’ve learned
that I must return to the First Love that I had
In order to
ever love again, and to change to good, from bad.
If I’m to
ever truly love again, or really learn what love’s all about
My First Love
will have to teach me, removing the fears and all the doubt.
He will have
to change my heart to make me love again.
But I know
the He will help me; to at least say, “I’m your friend”.
I want to
let you know just what you mean to me
I could turn the lock and hand you my hearts key.
But for now,
I hand it to my First Love, and it rests safely within His Hands.
I have to
now rely on Him, and that’s where my life now stands.
I don’t know
the future or how things will end.
All I know
for now is that I’m so glad I can call you my dear friend.
© Sydell R. Linsicombe